The line between compassion and disregard for human life

A little while ago i ended up in probably the biggest argument with my current girlfriend. The difference between here and I...Her and her what I call Over Compassion for human life and me with what she calls my heartless disregard for innocence. See it started about a month ago when she told me about her younger brother having sexual intercourse with his girlfriend and getting her pregnant...I really didnt have much to say cosidering it really had nothing to do with me. But when everything thing caught up again just a little while ago, I got a call from my girlfriend. She was in tears and crying and in one of those mood in which you cant really make out what they say cuz of their short breaths and stuff. Anyhow when she finally was able to speak understandable words, it turns out that her brothers girlfriend had left him because she was affraid of the pregnancy and was deciding to get an abortion...Not the best word to use for a strict christian god beliveing family. And I couldnt help think..."why is she calling me and crying about some other girls planned abortion". Her reasoning for being so upset was that it was her brothers (who happens to be 16) potential son and the girlfriend was her long time friend as well and that an abortion was like a death in her family...All I could come to tell her was, it wasnt her decision to make because it really had nothing to do with her. She cried even harder after that and told me shed call back cuz she had to call the girlfriend and try to convince her otherwise considering that my girlfriends parents said theyd be willing to take the child (they have 11 kids as it is). To me that Idea sounded fucking ridiculous...her family has 11 kids as it is and theyre willing to take another b/c their son made a mistake and my g.f took it upon herself to be the one to convince this other girl...I personally dont like the idea of abortion for my own reasons obviously but I was abut to be dragged into somthing far deeper that the concept of abortion...So eventually my girlfriend calls back and the first words out of her mouth are "promise you wont kill me". So now im pissed off and asked "what the hell did you do?" she replied "I offered to take the child myself". Oh what lovely words fell upon my ears. Ya know...they say you cant love someone until youve contemplated killing the one youre with...Oh yeah I wanted to kill her.

Ok so lets review shall we...My girlfriend Vanessa offeres to take an unborn child to save it from an abortion that her brothers now ex girlfriend was going to have, all becuase she has a little too much compassion..

My view, she made a decision on her own without thinking that it would affect me as well, cuz she thought I was all for the same anti abortion crap...Which I am, but UNDER CERTAIN CONDITIONS!. See if the kid has nothing to do with me, i really have no concern for the kid. I really have no concern for people I dont know...I mean to me, people die all over the word, in my neighborhood ect, but theres nothing I can do about everyone in trouble. Dont know if you understand my logic but hopefully you do.

So there was this massive argument over this unborn child, she wanted to keep it I didnt want anything to do with it, so this was one of those arguments where neither party backs down and itrs a giant shit fit...

well point is eventually a few days later after ignoring my gf's phone calls i finally decide to answer the phone. And shes crying saying shes sorry b/c the pregnant gf went and got tested and was never really pregnant and she only thought she was and my gf was sorry for almost ruining our relationship over somthing that never existed...GOD DAMNIT WAS I PISSED...i had to get off the phone and vent out for another few days...but now everything is all good..that situation just pissed me off though.

Resident Evil 5

Ok check this out Im sitting in the lounge messing with my laptop watching youtube videos and I happen to be sitting next to this quite large black kid who was playing his gameboy or somthing like that. Keep in mind Im half alseep waiting for Calculus to start at 6:30pm. And I decide to look up the game trailer for Resident Evil 5 ( a popular game much better than the movies about zombies and such). Well Im watching the trailer and its unraveling the plot of the game...Like ever other movie or game preview does, and the game happens to take place in africa, in which the main character of the game is white and all the africans around him become infected with the virus and they become zombies and you know the rest, kill, kill, kill. As Im watching this amazed at the graphics of the game itself I fail to notice the shocked face of this black kid sitting next to me. I dont realize anything untill he says "I can't believe they're going to allow this game to come out". At first I thought he was talking about the graphic violence in it so I replied with "Itll have to go through the ESRB for its violence rating like every other game". He then looks at me pissed off and says "No I meant the [Insert some black people rights orginization here], theyre gonna be all over to get this game banned because it one white guy killing a bunch of Africans". I dont remember what orginization he was talking about but he was pissed at the game saying it'll never come out and blah blah blah. I really didnt want to argue with him due to the fact that I was so tired but in my head i kept saying "you have to be joking...". My thought now that i look back on this subject are thats a bunch of bullshit. Its a game based on a virus that just happens to take over africa...the other games before it were all white people and some blacks too...but its a god damn game, shutup and ya know what if you dont like it dont buy it simple as that...There one game the ESRB hasnt even let come out yet b/c its so damn violent and bloody, its called MANHUNT2 which you play the main killer in a live action snuff film. But this kid was so focused on the fact that a bunch of digitall africans were the main victims to a viral infection of a GAME! And plus the company behind the game Capcom, has had a very good reputation and If any racial problems showed up in the game that brought negative attention to it, they would have changed it quickly. But this game has been in production for at least a year. And I honestly see no issues with it, but if anyone else does please let me know b/c I dont. People are just to damn sensitive sometimes...pisses me off especially if you have the choice to buy the game or not...and this kid was tellin me he loves the Resident evil series, so i bet you anything despite his attitude towards it hes gonna buy it so he can finish the series and find out how the game ends....And the Resident evil series is know for making their story lines quite believable in how they happen as in they all take place in modern day and make you believe theses things can actually happen thus the shock factor is greater for gamers, which this kid is a serious gamer...
heres the trailer.

Doctors and Hospital Appiointments. Freakin Great

Came in late today cuz of more damn hospital examinations and stuff. Had to go back for the results of Cat Scan and X-rays. Turns out I "look" pretty damn healthy to the doctors. But obviously that's not the case considering what happened in class. Ive had nearly 3 gallons of blood taken from me for test in the past 2 years. I'm a living guinea pig...So many damn needles and I.V's and wired hooked up to me; hate it. Anyhow this is the 5Th doc Ive been to and since he ain't got a clue, turns out he cant do surgery cuz he cant find anything to preform surgery on and thus is sending me to a 6th doctor who may have an idea. He thinks it may be something on a cellular level, almost like cancer but not really. At this point I'm about ready to give up. They cant find nothing and I'm still alive, so might as well just deal with it for how ever long it lasts. Cuz I'm quite exhausted with this viral infection or what ever they think it is. What don't kill me can only make me stronger right?

Compelled to Write

Dunno why but a few days mkI was extremley bored out of my mind, just chillin with my cat Ramses, when noticed my laptop was open. I suppose my lil' sister was using it for homework or somthing (dont know why she uses my computer when she's got her own). Well she had the Word proccesor up and I sat down and thought for a sec. Then decided to just start typing what I was thinking. Turns out I ended up typing the first page of a somewhat fictional story that just plopped itself into my head. But after finishing the first page and re-reading it I was compelled to make it "perfect". So for the next few hours I ended up just revising this first page. And I ended up making multiple first pages of fictional stories, none of them what to me seemed to at all perfect. So essentially I do what I do best when it comes to dissapointment, I get somthing to eat. After a good ramen noodles and roast beef sandwhich my brains overcomplex thought process calmed down for a bit. I took another look at the first pages of each different story and as much as Id love to finish them for some reason i enjoy reading the first page but leaving the rest of the story just hang there. Alot of them seem to be a tab bit morbid but none the less I enjoyed how they turned out. So I dont really know what the deal is but i seem to be good at just composing the first page of a story but anything after that is just a blank. Ill post a few up later.

Wilks Essay Revison...My way.

[Original-Wilks]
The idea that people could be so strongly effected by writing intrigued me. I learned that there are different ways to accomplish this; some of these ways might be considered right and wrong. I could write something very libelous and spiteful, and I would receive a certain reaction to that. On the other hand, I could write something that you cared about. Others might find that they care about this too and react to it.

[Mine-Mexico (the way it should be)]

There are crap loads of ways to twist peoples mind in the way they precieve literacy. There are positive way and negative ways, but none the less, whichever way it may be it will somehow transform the writer and essentially change the way they see writing as an art. It doesnt matter whether you take it in as spiteful and libelous or as a welcoming and warm subject, you cant argue that whatever i may of wrote, woouldnt of slighty changed either your life or a very small aspect about it.