Tuesday, November 27, 2007

The line between compassion and disregard for human life

A little while ago i ended up in probably the biggest argument with my current girlfriend. The difference between here and I...Her and her what I call Over Compassion for human life and me with what she calls my heartless disregard for innocence. See it started about a month ago when she told me about her younger brother having sexual intercourse with his girlfriend and getting her pregnant...I really didnt have much to say cosidering it really had nothing to do with me. But when everything thing caught up again just a little while ago, I got a call from my girlfriend. She was in tears and crying and in one of those mood in which you cant really make out what they say cuz of their short breaths and stuff. Anyhow when she finally was able to speak understandable words, it turns out that her brothers girlfriend had left him because she was affraid of the pregnancy and was deciding to get an abortion...Not the best word to use for a strict christian god beliveing family. And I couldnt help think..."why is she calling me and crying about some other girls planned abortion". Her reasoning for being so upset was that it was her brothers (who happens to be 16) potential son and the girlfriend was her long time friend as well and that an abortion was like a death in her family...All I could come to tell her was, it wasnt her decision to make because it really had nothing to do with her. She cried even harder after that and told me shed call back cuz she had to call the girlfriend and try to convince her otherwise considering that my girlfriends parents said theyd be willing to take the child (they have 11 kids as it is). To me that Idea sounded fucking ridiculous...her family has 11 kids as it is and theyre willing to take another b/c their son made a mistake and my g.f took it upon herself to be the one to convince this other girl...I personally dont like the idea of abortion for my own reasons obviously but I was abut to be dragged into somthing far deeper that the concept of abortion...So eventually my girlfriend calls back and the first words out of her mouth are "promise you wont kill me". So now im pissed off and asked "what the hell did you do?" she replied "I offered to take the child myself". Oh what lovely words fell upon my ears. Ya know...they say you cant love someone until youve contemplated killing the one youre with...Oh yeah I wanted to kill her.

Ok so lets review shall we...My girlfriend Vanessa offeres to take an unborn child to save it from an abortion that her brothers now ex girlfriend was going to have, all becuase she has a little too much compassion..

My view, she made a decision on her own without thinking that it would affect me as well, cuz she thought I was all for the same anti abortion crap...Which I am, but UNDER CERTAIN CONDITIONS!. See if the kid has nothing to do with me, i really have no concern for the kid. I really have no concern for people I dont know...I mean to me, people die all over the word, in my neighborhood ect, but theres nothing I can do about everyone in trouble. Dont know if you understand my logic but hopefully you do.

So there was this massive argument over this unborn child, she wanted to keep it I didnt want anything to do with it, so this was one of those arguments where neither party backs down and itrs a giant shit fit...

well point is eventually a few days later after ignoring my gf's phone calls i finally decide to answer the phone. And shes crying saying shes sorry b/c the pregnant gf went and got tested and was never really pregnant and she only thought she was and my gf was sorry for almost ruining our relationship over somthing that never existed...GOD DAMNIT WAS I PISSED...i had to get off the phone and vent out for another few days...but now everything is all good..that situation just pissed me off though.

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